*sigh*

ok well the past few days have been a little better. i have started a horrible habit of smoking...i am sad to say..but i enjoy so right now i don't care. classes are going good have my first exam next week for accounting 303...don't know what to except there, a little nervous about it. he doesn't really teach us anything and is always getting things mixed up. saying one thing writing down another and then changing both things to the other one. he never really says the same thing twice which is a bit annoying. oh well. went out with the women from the school board office friday night. that was a lot of fun. mike came with me and then we went to a movie, transporter 2, not bad, not great, but not bad, stupid action film with a few funny bits, though they were probably not suppose to be funny, but mike and i laughed and made jokes. it was fun. got a couple new books to read...just what i need more reading!!! i got angles and demons and the porn generation. the first one was recommended to me and was on sale. the second one i found in the politics section and it looked interesting, i got through the first 10 pages or so just sitting in the aile. i have so many books that i need to read for school and other books that i have borrowed from friends and then the harry potter book from my family that i just don't know when i will have time to actually read it all. i want to but there are just not enough hours in the day for that and everything else i have or want to get done. my computer is still being a bitch...and oh joy i don't have a window's disk, i have the office xp stuff but not the windows xp. so i can get rid of the software and reinstall it but i can't reinstall windows which is probably what i need to do, which really sucks because this means calling up the company and fighting with them and possibly having to pay for a new window's xp thing...which i don't want to do i have already spent enough money trying to get this damn thing to work. i am looking foward to sunday night though...the sbo girls have invited me to another get together...this one involving drinks. they said that i could bring people too. and they invited mike personally and gave him a hard time when he said he had a lot of work to do on sunday. i also want to try to make it to the catholic mass they have here on sunday...it is at 4 i think i can make that. i have a lot of stuff i need to get done but i think i can fit that in there. i have been wanting to go, something just always comes up. last week it was the goodman challenge meeting. and my schooling and that stuff is first priority in my life right now, spirital stuff can come later along with other stuff.

hmmmm...i feel like i am waiting for something to happen, i don't know what. it is a mix between dread and excitment. so i don't know what is going to happen or if it is going to be good or bad, but i feel like i should be rushing toward something that just needs to get here so that i can deal with it one way or another. sorry a little bit of a tangent there...just got that weird feeling all of a sudden. oh well i think i am going to end this for tonight and just go to bed or find something to do. ttfn...ta ta for now